is it just like that? you breathe your last breathe and all that you struggled or fight for is gone?
its not like that.
looking at the mice struggling for its life, i can't help but feel sad that that's the end for it. no more. no life after death, nothing. just emptiness. wait, maybe not even emptiness. but i guess, its worse to be in eternal death. im really thankful to have eternal life.
second time this week to envision You on the cross. the physical pain must have been unbearable. but i know its nothing compared to the hurt You felt inside. and yet You willingly went up there, just because of LOVE.
Lord, let me stop nailing You to the cross every single time.
Lord, i just feel like i haven done anything. and time is just slipping by every moment. and this feeling is horrible. but i'll trust in You. Your time.
face it. contradictions throughout. if you're unsure, then don't say it so surely. if you don't know what actions are appropriate, then don't show any. you may like/prefer things to stay like this, just so u can stay in your own comfort zone. but thats not the way things should be and can be. stop being so sure of yourself. convincing yourself in what you wish to believe is; by coming up with arguments/reasons, even when it just doesn't tally? face it. face up to yourself.
if this past week is a reflection of how life will be after school starts. im just gonna faints. >.<
my energy level goes down so much that by thurs, im practically dead. >.< waking up at 6plus everyday and reaching home at an average of 12midnight is just wow.
i am so dead. totally undone. what crap laaaaaaaa. i just have no idea can.
my laptop is vibrating till the extend that my whole table is vibrating with it. this is ridiculous. and i have no time to go repair it. WOW. >.< lets hope it doesnt explode anytime soon.
registered for modules next sem. all the things to consider. hmmmm. haii.
i will sleep early tonight. 815am at city hall tml. my goodness.
i finally found a planner/diary that i like! at jp ytd........... but have to go mbs to buy. >.< because of lack of new stocks at jp. since im going mbs next week.. might as welllllll~
and my specs is till waiting for me in malaysia.. plus my jeans which is waiting at yishun..
and my laptop is waiting for me to repair it.
and, its time i went back to it. but who, where, when, how?!
whats with this year. i cant seem to be successful in being late. sunday, purposely intend to be late. only to reach and realise the meeting time was at one hr later than what i tot. end up with time to spare...........
today. was late.......... until the meeting time changed while im alr on train. and everyone was even later. original time, 1230.. end up, 130 also haven start. luckily i realised its at 1230, not 12 before leaving house. if notttttttttttttt. my goodness. >.< actually, whats with me. >.< and since i clearly know tml is 10. and the meeting time can't change. i think......... i'll be late. =)
and the rain clearly knows the best time to fall. when one doesn't have an umbrella. >.<
and then i wonder why everything falls on the same date. i dun like. leaving early nor going later. like here and there, not really anywhere. but this beats not being able to go at all.
i love it. i love the thoughts behind it. thank you. =)
and so, this year, or last year.. two of my presents so happens to be musical boxes. one in a tin form, one in a paper bag form. both of the same tune, and same handle. HAHAHAHA.. but till now, i still can't figure out the tune. much as it sounds very familiar. >.<
simplicity in a certain sense. or mindless crap. or maybe just responsibilities, obligations, weight there. it felt nice. really.
the tourist is pretty nice~ just........... too twisty.>.< NO HINT AT ALL. >.<
2011 is here. but whhy do i feel like 2009 just ended instead? where did 2010 go?